As some people may know, as well as the administrator for Harmless, I am also a spoken word poet. I believe that recovery can be a huge part of recovery for those who self harm, at least it was for me, and I know for many of the people I meet when performing and teaching.
This year Harmless asked me to share some of my poetry at our annual celebration event which I agreed to without question. The night was amazing to be a part of and it meant so much for me to be able to do what I loved, and what I believe saved my life, for an organisation that helps so may others on the road to recovery.
Here is one of the pieces I performed on the night…
It was harmless –
I was tattooing imprints,
I could stop any time.
distorting deceit from my lips
but the words started to heal
draping dressings around feelings.
So I stepping stoned these letters,
bridged sentences over the tunnel
to the other side
It was lighter,
My pen, a sonic screwdriver
torching hope into my world.
The recovery took longer.
It’s not like they tell you –
it’s no finger snap
snapping minds back into place.
It’s not as simple as
putting a smile back on your face.
It takes a hook
a vehicle cargoing
a hand, an ear, a pen
for me it was a voice;
I declared harm less before I felt it,
before I heard it,
before I believed it.
Before I believed in myself.
learning self appreciation.
Now appreciation’s turned to celebration,
‘cause I was baby stepping stages for ages –
I was weeping on pages
now I’m spitting on stages
and I’m not saying I’m recovered forever
but I know where to turn when there’s a little bad weather
‘cause I found my voice.
Found an outlet
letting emotions flow,
written down and I spoke up.
Spoke of the times I cried
and most importantly why.
I’m not saying I’m recovered forever
but I know where to turn –
turned my life around
and believed in myself –
now I look in the mirror when I need some help.
Tracing my reflection on glass,
tattooing new imprints –
hope sketched on my arm
like inspiration instead of harm.
Hayley Green (Harmless Administrator)